When he had thus spoken, he spat on the ground, and made clay of the spittle, and he anointed the eyes of the blind man with the clay, And said unto him, Go, wash in the pool of Siloam, (which is by interpretation, Sent.) He went his way therefore, and washed, and came seeing. (John 9:6-7)
I apologize for my lack of contributing to this blog.
Since my last post, I’ve been diagnosed with breast cancer. The first diagnosis was difficult enough to hear. But then, it got worse. A pet scan showed the cancer had passed through my lymph nodes (our filtering system) into my blood stream. From there it invaded my lungs. The spots are small, which means it’s treatable and controllable.
I began chemo May 2.
Needless to say, a lot of emotions have been boiling up in our house. But God is faithful and is with me every step of the way.
When the doctor told me the biopsy tested positive for cancer in my lymph nodes, he said “it was a miracle they even found it. It never would’ve shown up on a routine mammogram.” Which I’ve had every year for the past fifteen years, by the way. My first thought was God has a plan.
He has surrounded me with a “cloud of witnesses” in every doctor’s office I’ve visited thus far, as He compels me forward through chemo treatments. Many believers ask why I’m going through medical treatments when God has the power to heal. Yes, I believe with all my heart that God could heal me immediately without an oncologist’s intervention. But which takes more faith to believe God can when He does? Or to still believe He can even when He doesn’t?
I’m not a super-saint by anyone’s standards. I’m simply trusting my Father to do what is best for me and what will bring Him the most glory. While I prayed about this, He showed me something quite amazing. During His earthly ministry, Jesus did not heal everyone who asked immediately. He told ten lepers to go and do whatever the law required. As they walked away in faith, they were healed (Luke 17:11-14). Similarly, Jesus made a mudpack, smeared it on a blind man’s eyes, and told him to go wash at the pool of Siloam. The man obeyed in faith and returned seeing (John 9:6-7).
Jesus wants us to be proactive in our healings and every other aspect of our lives. Yes, He can do all things. And He does them well. But He, more often than not, expects us to take an active part in His work within us. So I go to the center for my treatments. I try to follow the doctor’s advice. I even signed up for a Look Good, Feel Better class next month. But more than anything, I’m following Jesus’ instructions and trusting Him to heal my body, to strengthen my faith, and to hold me close when I’m overwhelmed with the process.
How about you? How are you actively participating in the Father’s work in your life?
See you in a twinkling,
Brenda K. Hendricks
Brenda – I am so sorry to hear about your cancer diagnosis, yet I am so inspired by your deep faith as you move forward through this new journey in your life. I’m glad studied the Scriptures about healing and have decided to do the chemotherapy. I believe it’s the right thing to do. People often tell me if I have enough faith God will heal me. Well I have a whole lot of faith, otherwise I would never be able to write a blog about God’s power and the life of a quadriplegic. I do believe if God wants to heal me, he’ll do so, but right now he is using me in a powerful way to have an impact on others for Christ. If he chooses to use my quadriplegia in this way until I die, I am okay with that. Like Paul, I long to be with Christ, but I believe I have a very important testimony here on earth. If my faith and my life impacts even one person for Christ, then it’s all been worthwhile. God bless.
Thank you for your sweet testimony. Perhaps only those who have gone through the “gauntlet” understand where we stand and perceive our mission field. I believe, as you do, if God wants to heal either of us at this very moment, He will. But only He sees the true picture and importance of our steadfast faith.
Your testimony as a quadriplegic speaks louder than many “healed-and-soon-forgotten miracles.” Your faith shines through and brings glory to God every moment of every day.
I want to be well again. But first, let me bring praise, honor, and glory to my God.
See you in a twinkling,